Don’t Chase the Boys
So I broke my back over 20 years ago in a snow skiing accident. At least that’s what a chiropractor once told me. I was trying to keep up with some cute boys, went over a jump, and landed horribly. The terrible landing wasn’t what did it, though. When you go skiing and you fall down, your skis are supposed to pop off…but mine didn’t. So I rolled down the hill in a bumpy, lopsided fashion, when you’re really supposed to be able to do more of a roll.
I’ve had back problems ever since. A chiropractor told me I fractured a bone in my back that healed slightly crooked. I didn’t go to the doctor at the time, so who really knows. I’ve been to many doctors since, and they’ve never mentioned a broken bone, but they’ve given me all kinds of drugs, tens units, epidural shots and more. None of these treatments ever quite worked for me. But a good chiropractor, a long walk, and a massage therapist can do wonders.
The chiropractor told me because of the break, my spine is slightly crooked. (I’m imbalanced in more ways than one.) Because my spine is crooked, my muscles on the right side of my back and into my buttocks have to work really hard to try to keep me straight. So they end up sore and knotted up much of the time.
Bed of Nails
Welcome to my torture chamber. I have a Bed of Nails to lay on to loosen up the knots. Some people use these beds of nails, not for back pain, but to meditate. I end up using it for both. You can’t do much else while lying on a bed of nails. It’s a little hard to hold a book, or to fall asleep. I can’t really prop up my head to watch TV because I have to lie perfectly flat. So I just lie there, and zone out…or zone in. Zone in on nothing…cause that’s what happens when you meditate. But because you zone in on nothing, there’s more room for the everything. The All in the All…or something like that.
And when you zone in on the everything, you realize that life is not that bad…that there is magic in the air. You focus on what there is, instead of what there isn’t. And there’s a lot. I have some favorite magic Merlins I have come across in my lifetime, that have made lots of something out of seemingly very little.
Nick Vujicic tried to drown himself in a bathtub when he was a child. He was born without arms or legs, and because of that he thought he’d never be able to have the life that others had. He’s now written a book called Life Without Limits: Inspiration for a Ridculously Good Life.
Kris Carr was diagnosed with with stage IV cancer ten years ago on Valentines day. She now calls Valentine’s day her cancerversary and feels like her illness has been one of her greatest gifts, her best teachers.
I grew up Mormon, and there is a scripture in The Book of Mormon where The Lord speaks and says,
“…if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.”
I’m not as Mormon as I once was, but I still love that scripture. All of us on Earth have weaknesses, in our bodies…in our minds. But faith and humility go a long way. When we surrender to our circumstances, and hand them over to The Lord, (or the universe, or the divine, or mother earth, or to unicorns…I hand mine over to anyone and anything that will take them) our weak things will be made strong.
Nick Vujicic, has learned how to throw a tennis ball, surf and play soccer, without any arms or legs. Kris Carr has an incredibly healthy body, despite her cancer. I was once locked in a mental hospital but now I am emotionally well and sound of mind.
Sometimes we have to pass through the torture chamber to get there. But magic is possible. We can ride our faith to wholeness. To happiness.
No matter what our circumstances, our faith can take us there.